I could still remember the nervousness and anxiety before the upcoming performance. On 5th of March, as a student graduated from Taichung Girls' High School, I stood on the stage of Taichung Girls' High School Guitar Club's performance for the third time.
0305 TCGS Guitar Club Performance
My singing has never been the most outstanding, or the most attractive. I was once commented by my teacher that my high pitch sounds terrible, which makes me feel extremely frustrated. I used to think that I could get full applause on the stage as long as I practiced the guitar or singing hard. My teacher’s words pointed out the reality of this society: when it comes to the comments of music performances, they are mostly subjective and cruel. What matters the most is neither the compliments nor the attacks, but the self-recognition.
In order to verify my faith in music and test my ability, I summoned the courage to invite my club mates to perform “Pretender”, one of my favourite songs from the Japanese rock band, Official Higedan Dism. Also, I accepted the invitation to play the electric guitar of Wu Bai and China Blue’s “Love you ten thousand years”. Throughout the winter vacation, music became my life: I hummed songs while washing dishes, did scale exercises while watching live streams, made sure to record the part of my practice before going to bed, and recorded the parts that need to be improved every day.
Even though it was frustrating during practice—my runs and riffs sounded like rusty shafts, and I always bended the string to the wrong note, I kept struggling. The moment I stepped on the stage, looking at the crowd of people under the stage, my heart could not feel much more tranquil. I had nothing but gratitude in my heart for the listeners who would judge me. I genuinely hope that someone could feel motivated in life from my singing.
